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It was more than that for her. He was the boy she would have dropped anything and everything just to spend a night with him. He was always at the center of her world, but she couldn't seem to grasp the concept that she was never the center of his.
Every famous case of love boils down to reckless honesty.
I look back on everything that happened, you and me. You were someone I thought I couldn't live without. You were such a charmer, such a sweet talker. Anytime you ever screwed up, there you were whispering sweet words in my ear and I was wrapped around your finger again. You're a user, and I was naive. I thought it would all be okay, I thought you would change. I thought you would be who I wished you would be. The one you said you could be. So here I am now, looking back over the past year and here I am, completely forgiving you for screwing me over, making me feel like shit, and using me for everything I'm not. Thank you for letting me see the pathetic person you are.
if its up to this world, you'll end up in the same dull&drab job as everyone else, thoroughly bored. live every moment as if it were your last, and keep your heart pure. life will work out.
Humans have a knack for choosing precisely the things that are worst for them.
"My old man always swore that hell would have no flame. Just a front row seat to watch your true love pack her things and drive away."
I'm never letting this one go. Because certain people enter our lives at the most peculiar times, for the most beautiful reasons. They seem to make such perfect impressions while leaving behind an everlasting impact. Some of the best things in life appear when you least expect them, things you can never forget
I’ll be your accident if you’ll be my ambulance. I’ll be your screech and crash if you’ll be my clutch and cast. I’ll be your one more time if you’ll be my one last chance.
++TV on the Radio--“Ambulance”
i hope you know that all your inner demons are nothing compared to the person YOU are. & when you're done fighting all the hurt in you, or even when you're still fighting, ill be here.
And when we meet, which I’m sure we will, all that was there will be there still. I'll let it pass and hold my tongue and you will think that I’ve moved on.
I like to feel his eyes on me when I look away.
What we need are more people
who specialize in the impossible.
Before you can inspire with emotion, you must be swamped with it yourself. Before you can move their tears, your own must flow. To convince them, you must yourself believe.
if i promise not to cry,
can you look me in the eyes
& for the first time in your life,
tell me exactly how you feel
the `good and the bad`
i want to know everything.
Do not give me that whole “I’m so misunderstood,” Kurt Cobain-y thing. You are way stronger than that, and I don’t even wanna hear it… You could do more.
And then I realized it isn't about love. It isn't about anniversaries and white picket fences. I started thinking that I didn't need love. I needed to be needed. I needed to be idolized. I needed to be that thing that a person stares at and wants more than anything in the world. I always thought love was, I don't know, this intangible, impossibly beautiful thing. But then I realized that there isn't anything like that in the world. Love isn't unreachable, and when you do reach it, it's definitely not entirely beautiful, and that was sort of disappointing for me. All those dreams I'd had when I was a little girl, all those epic poems and fairytales were useless and wrong. Eventually, though, I came to realize that I could be that beautiful thing. I could be the thing everyone reached for and dreamed about. I could be the thing that made a person feel incredible, and I could be the thing that tore them apart. I could be what love wasn't
And that was it. All this buildup to a great leap, and I didn't fall or fly. Instead I found myself back on the edge of the cliff, blinking, wondering if I'd ever jumped at all. It's not supposed to be like this.
I could catch just like a candle, melt myself down to an end, and have no way of ever coming back 'round here again. Or I could glow just like an amber rising out of an Autumn fire, drifting towards the heavens, floating higher and higher. You better hide your matches, boy.
Time is lost on me. It always has been. To me, the most sensible thing about time is that the clock is a perfect circle. I keep coming back here; back to this place, but on a different day and with a different set of eyes. I read an old journal this morning. Nearly by accident, but not exactly. It had been lying there in my closet waiting for a home after a recent unpacking. Before I retired it to the drawer where I retire things, I gave it one last look. A page from another life. Same person, different day, different set of eyes, lighter pressure on the pen. A page full of certainty and also full of questions. It’s always strange to read the things you’ve hoped for in the past because by now those hopes may be spoken for or gone, transformed or altogether forgotten. Like time, hope can be so senseless. It can carry us up mountains or lie us in the quicksand. But like time, hope is unstoppable, inevitable, and blind. Sometimes we travel fast, hurdling towards the unknown, sometimes the unknown comes hurdling towards us while we watch time standing still." -Andrew McMahon
" To him she seemed so beautiful, so seductive, so different from ordinary people, that he could not understand why no one was as disturbed as he by the clicking of her heels on the paving stones, why no one else’s heart was wild with the breeze stirred by the sighs of her veils, why everyone did not go mad with the movements of her braid, the flight of her hands, the gold of her laughter. He had not missed a single one of her gestures, not one of the indications of her character, but he did not dare approach her for fear of destroying the spell."
-Gabriel Gárcia Márquez (Love in the Time of Cholera)
"How we need that security! How we need another soul to cling to, another body to keep us warm. To rest and trust; to give your soul in confidence: I need this, I need someone to pour myself into." -Sylvia Plath
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"there's isn't anyone you couldn't love after you've heard their story." -Mary Lou Kownacki
and the worst of it is, you still have the nerve to be happy, the nerve to be with another girl, when im standing here fucking heartbroken & completely in love with you.
im not perfect. ill never be able to catch your eye with just my looks. but i keep hoping one day you'll find something in me worth your time.
im sorry i never seem to be enough. im sorry i always forget to pick up my room. im sorry sometimes all i want to do is sit outside and think of him. im sorry my grades arent perfect. im sorry im so slow sometimes. im sorry im not the type of person you wanted in your life.
I miss you
I miss your smile
& I still shed a tear every once in a while
& even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go & I need you to know
I miss you.
This is the hardest & longest goodbye I've ever have to give, but here it is. You had me at hello. I fell for you, chased after you like crazy. I dreamt of you. I would've done anything for you. I'm not even sure I should say "would've", I'm still pretty sure I'd do anything for you. But you don't want me back. And I don't want to wait for you anymore.
& everyone attacks me for still not being over him. why dont they attack him for still being so beautiful?
This is me at my core. I fucking miss you. I miss how things used to be. And I could be completely wrong, but I still sometimes think that maybe you feel the same way. And that's what keeps me holding on. That maybe, you miss what we had too.
I'm glad you were my first, no matter where we ended.
you know that i could use somebody
someone like you
i hope it's gonna make you notice
someone like me
-Kings of Leon
i want to take you far from the cynics in this town
and kiss you on the mouth
we have been to the moon
we have charted the depths of the ocean
and the heart of the atom
but we have a fear of looking inward to ourselves
because we sense that is where
all the contradictions flow together
And they turn and they dance and they laugh and they lust.
when everything inside of me looks like everything i hate,
You are the hope i have for change ; You are the only chance i'll take.
i like to see people reunited.
i like to see people run to eachother, i like the kissing and the crying.
i like the impatience, the stories that the mouth can't tell fast enough,
the ears that aren't big enough, the eyes that can't take in all of the change.
i like the hugging, the bringing together.
the end of missing someone.
-- Jonathan Safran Foer.
I ask you for the time, but I am asking for so much more
A moth to your light bulb, you made my heart beat faster
Paralyze me, with your kiss
Wipe those dirty hands, on me
Maybe we’re looking for the same thing
Maybe you’re the one who will complete me
I think that sometimes, people just want to feel wanted.
Park that car
Drop that phone
Sleep on the floor
Dream about me
-Broken Social Scene
love and kindness are never wasted.
they always make a difference.
-- Barbara De Angelis
so i let you go, i set you free.
and when you've seen what you need to see,
when you find yourself, comeback to me.
We are only asked to love, to offer hope to the many hopeless. We don’t get to choose all the endings, but we are asked to play the rescuers. We won’t solve all mysteries and our hearts will certainly break in such a vulnerable life, but it is the best way. We were made to be lovers, bold in broken places, pouring ourselves out again until we’re called home.
I hope everything works out for you.
Well it's not like it hurts that much anyway.
-The Academy Is...
to lose someone you love changes your life forever. you don't get over it because it's the person you loved. the pain stops, there are new people, but the gap never closes. how could it ? the particularness of someone who mattered enough to grieve over is not made simpler by death. this hole in my heart is in the shape of you, and no one else can fit it. why would i want them to ?
Eventually, you have to realize, that what you’re waiting for, just wasn’t meant to be.
Sometimes I wonder what a soulmate is. Because you can break my heart over & over, but I'm not going anywhere. If that's not a love that's meant to be, I don't know what is.
Street lights carry me home tonight,
and this will be the last time that I ever make this drive.
We haven’t talked in days,
but it’s clear what you’re trying to say.
Things are changing, and you keep running away.
The days just seem to go by faster,
and I’m still stuck in this moment of wanting you here.
I called because I wanted you to know
that despite everything that's happened,
and all the miles between us right now,
I still think about the way it was in the beginning.
They say all good things must come to an end, and that nothing gold can stay. Well, you and I may be good as gold, but we’re as real as a memory; a memory that will never leave me. You will never leave me, because you’re in my heart and you’re in my soul. You’re everywhere I go.
I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn’t know you had inside you. And it doesn’t matter how many new haircuts you get or gyms you join, or how many blue-raspberry slushes you drink with your girlfriends. You still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could’ve misunderstood. And you wonder how in the heck for that brief moment you could think that you were happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he’ll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long that may be, you’ll go somewhere new. And you’ll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And the little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, will all eventually begin to fade.
Let go of what makes you lonely.
Hold on to me.
It made me wonder how many times we forgive just because we don't want to lose someone, even if they don't deserve our forgiveness.
~Deb Caletti, Honey, Baby, Sweetheart
& I'm just gonna move on and forget he ever existed. Can't be too difficult, right?
It's amazing the things you realize when you lose someone. You get mad at yourself for not saying the things you could have said a million times. You take for granted the days you spent doing nothing when you could have been with them. Anyone can be taken, at any point in our lives, but we always wait until they're gone to say the things we never had the courage to say.
“So, now you love me? That's cute. Adorable in fact. Considering, YOU let me go. You pushed me away,and I'm no idiot, I took the hint and got over you. So you love me? Bullshit. You came to that conclusion too late.”
People think that if you love somebody hard enough, then everything is going to work out. People are wrong.
it's not love that hurts.
it's the infatuation that we so blindly accept as love that hurts.
true love should never have to hurt.
Oh, well I don’t mind if you don’t mind.
Because I don’t shine if you don’t shine.
The only reason people get angry is to cover up the hurt.
I think he did it because he loved her.
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And that's when you realize
He's the boy you're crazy for.
The one who makes you laugh on the worst days.
He's not perfect, but neither are you.
Sometimes he's dorky, but he's your dork.
He kisses you in the rain and dances with no music,
Even though he knows it's cliché.
He made you realize it is possible
to have permanent butterflies.
Every love song makes sense because of him,
Because he loves you, and you love him.
I cannot write in verse, for I am no poet. I cannot arrange the parts of speech with such art as to produce effects of light and shade, for I am no painter. Even by signs and gestures I cannot express my thoughts and feelings, for I am no dancer. But I can do so by means of sounds, for I am a musician.
- Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart.
Forgive me for liking you too much, I'll forgive you for not liking my enough. Forgive me for the loud racing of my heart, I'll forgive you for not hearing it. Forgive me for finding you amazing, I'll forgive you for never noticing. Forgive me for wanting to be with you more than anything, I'll forgive you for avoiding me. Forgive me for being so pathetic, I'll forgive you for taking advantage of it. Forgive me for not being able to let go, I'll forgive you for never holding on.
I wonder if you fear me sometimes. If you fear just how much I'd do for you. Truth is, I'm afraid of myself sometimes too.
Isn't it messed up how I'm just dying to be him?
-Fall Out Boy
Don't wait for something big to occur. start where you are with what you have, and that will always lead you into something greater.
Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Yet when you don't believe in love, it finds a way to make you a believer. And you always....always go crawling back...
- Neil Gaiman
The remains of being in love are alot of maybes. Maybe if I were prettier you would've stayed. Maybe if I could think of what to say around you instead of smiling and laughing, you would've been more interested in me. Maybe if I hadn't said I love you you wouldn't have ever been afraid of comittment. Maybe if I had held you tighter, you never would've left.
The honest truth is that it's you. It's always been you. You're the one I've stayed up all night crying and dreaming about. When I see you in the halls, you're the one I want to walk to class with, laughing along the way. Sometimes I think I live in an imaginary world, because all I do is daydream about us happening. And if you think for one minute that my feelings will ever change, then you're wrong.
You're all geniuses, and you're all beautiful. You don't need anyone to tell you who you are. You are what you are. Get out there and get peace, think peace, and live peace and breathe peace, and you'll get it as soon as you like.
- John Lennon
I don't know how or why I fell for you, but I did. Even years later, you still cross my mind. I let go of you because you were too much hurt, too much confusion, and too little certainty. I need to know that you love me, I need to know that you would do anything to be my everything. So when I see you or hear your voice, yeah I'll admit my heart still does skip a beat. I let go of you, but you never let go of my heart.
Once upon a time, I wanted to know what love was. Love is there if you want it to be. You just have to see that it's wrapped in beauty and hidden away in between the seconds of your life. If you don't stop for a minute, you might miss it.
- Ben Willis, Cashback
The journey in between what you once were and who you are now becoming is where the dance of life really takes place.
- Barbara De Angelis
I don't want to think of a day where I won't see you. As cliche as that sounds, I just can't imagine you not around.
I never wondered why I couldn't let you go, I always knew. You were the one who made me feel amazing, just by holding my hand or making a lame joke. You were the one who stayed up late with me to do homework. You were the one who called me just to talk to me. You were the one who sent electric shocks through my body when we kissed. You were the one who fit with me when we were holding each other. You were the one for me. I always knew.
Maybe it's not my weekend, but it's gonna be my year.
-All Time Low
I'm not afraid of love. I'm afraid of not being loved back.
"So here’s a piece of advice: let go when you’re hurting too much, give up when love isn’t enough, and move on when things are not like before. For surely there is someone out there who will love you even more."
Find your way into my heart.
All stars could be brighter.
All hearts could be warmer
-The Devil Wears Prada
Each relationship between two persons is absolutely unique. That is why you cannot love two people the same. It simply is not possible. You love each person differently because of who they are and the uniqueness that they draw out of you.
Run past the streetlights and down the streets, I'll always be there waiting for you. I promise.
From the moment you leaned in close to me and held me tight, I knew you'd mean alot more to me than you should.
Driving home the sky accelerates.
And the clouds all form a geometric shape.
And it goes fast, you think of the past.
Suddenly everything has changed.
-The Postal Service
That it was a heart that he was stealing,
Oh he was ready to impress and the fierce excitement,
The eyes are bright he couldnt wait to get away,
I bet the juliet was just the icing on the cake
I want to be your last thought before going to bed.
Yeah, we were just two friends in lust
And baby, that just don't mean much
You trained me not to love
After you showed me what it was
After a while, it becomes a matter of respect, for myself. If you don't think I'm worth your love, then I'm going to convince myself you're not worth mine.
And baby, there may be clouds overhead but I'll be here with you, till the end. Just give me a chance.
Babe i already miss you
Sweetheart i already miss you
Sweeteyes i already miss you
And you only just walked out the door
Sometimes I'm sick of reading quotes and poems and listening to music because it makes me think of you. I don't want these things to be my you. I just want you here.
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& I'm sure everyone else can find a million defects in you. Truth is, I can too. But the difference is, none of them matter at all to me. I still love you.
There’s nothing like the deep breaths after laughing
that hard. Nothing in the world like a sore
stomach for the right reasons.
+The Perks of Being a Wallflower
I realized that none of my great days in life matter without you. You're the one I want next to me when my dreams come true. You're the one I want next to me if they don't. As long as I have you, nothing else matters.
- One Tree Hill
It's that goddamn smile. The way your eyes glisten when youre happy, and are darker when youre sad. Something in me just wants to protect you, to tell you it'll all be alright. Now if only you felt the same way.
Summer lovin' on a gurney with a squeaky wheel
-Fall Out Boy
"In summer, the song sings itself."
+William Carlos Williams
I don't think anybody understood the love that i had for you, Because if they did, they would of never doubted us.
We crossed paths for a reason.
The planets align in the particular season.
It's clear to me, that we'll eventually be, inseparable.
I love your existence, I can't get enough.
nobody will ever understand, you're more than just any other crush. youre everything i want, everything i need. and all i can do is hope one day ill be youre one and only. the sad thing is, i think i could wait forever for you to hold me just once.
people say it hurts to have someone then lose them. maybe it does, but what fucking hurts more is never having them at all. id rather have you once then never, because then id have something to remember. at least then id know you wanted me once.
& yeah, of course I want you to be happy. But is it so impossible to be happy with me?
The wonderful thing about falling in love is that you learn everything about that person so quickly. And if it's true love, then you start to see yourself through their eyes and it brings out the best in you. It's almost like you are falling in love with yourself.
I heard somewhere that everyone has at least five dreams a night, even if they don't remember them. So thats alot of dreams. Billions and Billions. At least one of them has to be about me.
You are the only one who has ever
touched my heart. It will always be yours.
& whenever people say he's worthless i want to scream at them. i want to tell them just how beautiful his smile is, just how perfect his eyes are, just how cute his lame jokes are, just how funny he is when hes happy, just how lost he is, and just how much i love him.
you took the best of me. and i dont miss it. keep it, and i hope you think of me.
You gave me the sun and I gave you the light
Give me the moon, I'll give you the night.
I'd do for you what you'd do for me
You can ask for anything.
I was always said boys don't have hearts. But now I know thats not true because that boy has mine.
You're just plain static. I feel it whenever I'm around you. And whenever I'm close to you, I'm ecstatic. That has to mean something.
Forgetting isn't enough. You can paddle away from the memories and think they are gone, but they will keep floating back again and again and again. They circle you like sharks and you are bleeding your fear into the sea. Until, unless something, someone can do more than just cover the wound.
I've traveled to Paris, London, and Rome. Boy, I thought I'd seen all the beauty there is in this world. Until you walked into my life and colored my world.
All I have left is my hope. And I'm hoping some divine force wouldn't drop you into my life & not let me have you.
I may not know much about love, but here's what I do know. I know that wanting you to be happy no matter what means more than friendship. So does daydreaming of kissing you, replaying memories of us, and every love song reminding me of you. My heart aching whenever you just walk by me and don't acknowledge me, that's much more than friendship.
Everything about you screams beautiful, unforgettable, and heartbreak.
it's a vicious cycle. each time i try to let go, i think "well maybe tomorrow he'll want me".
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