when the stars make way for day
and the illusion of summer goes away
you'll always be my favorite.
“ Grown-ups never understand anything for themselves, and it is tiresome for children to be always and forever explaining things to them.
- Antoine de Saint-Exupery, The Little Prince
I come undone, oh yes I do
Just think of all the thoughts wasted on you.
“ One day I went to work and Grace was at her desk and she was crying. I asked her what was wrong and she said that she’d been driving to work and she’d seen an ambulance and she pulled over and the car in front of her pulled over and the ambulance passed them. She said that she suddenly thought about how when someone is in danger or is hurt that an ambulance is called and that everyone moves so that the paramedics can get to that person in the shortest time possible. She said that all of a sudden she realised how wonderful that was. We, all of us, in this society, move so that someone we’ve never met can get help."
I think we ought to read only the kind of books that wound and stab us. If the book we are reading doesn’t wake us up with a blow on the head, what are we reading it for? We need the books that affect us like a disaster, that grieve us deeply, like the death of someone we loved more than ourselves, like being banished into forests far from everyone, like a suicide. A book must be the axe for the frozen sea inside us.
There are those hearts that never mend again once they are broken. Or if they do mend, they heal themselves in a crooked and lopsided way, as if sewn together by a careless craftsman.
well ill hold you tight, till the dawn breaks
maybe the sky will fall
or maybe it wont amount to anything at all
but im here anyway.
sometimes, im sad for no reason. or maybe its just everything at once, and my subconcious feels it but i dont. ill hear a beautiful song and cry, or read an amazing book and just want to be alone. ill see graffiti on a wall and think of all the love the world is missing.
don't i hold you like you want to be held
don't i please you like you want
and don't i love you like you want to be loved
and you're running away
ive never really thought long term. ive never thought of us getting married or having kids. all i think of is right now, of sleeping next to you, counting your heartbeats. of holding your hand. of anything i have of you right now.
The Archipelago of Kisses
We live in a modern society. Husbands and wives don’t
grow on trees, like in the old days. So where
does one find love? When you’re sixteen it’s easy,
like being unleashed with a credit card
in a department store of kisses. There’s the first kiss.
The sloppy kiss. The peck.
The sympathy kiss. The backseat smooch. The we
shouldn’t be doing this kiss. The but your lips
taste so good kiss. The bury me in an avalanche of tingles kiss.
The I wish you’d quit smoking kiss.
The I accept your apology, but you make me really mad
sometimes kiss. The I know
your tongue like the back of my hand kiss. As you get
older, kisses become scarce. You’ll be driving
home and see a damaged kiss on the side of the road,
with its purple thumb out. If you
were younger, you’d pull over, slide open the mouth’s
red door just to see how it fits. Oh where
does one find love? If you rub two glances, you get a smile.
Rub two smiles, you get a warm feeling.
Rub two warm feelings and presto-you have a kiss.
Now what? Don’t invite the kiss over
and answer the door in your underwear. It’ll get suspicious
and stare at your toes. Don’t water the kiss with whiskey.
It’ll turn bright pink and explode into a thousand luscious splinters,
but in the morning it’ll be ashamed and sneak out of
your body without saying good-bye,
and you’ll remember that kiss forever by all the little cuts it left
on the inside of your mouth. You must
nurture the kiss. Turn out the lights. Notice how it
illuminates the room. Hold it to your chest
and wonder if the sand inside hourglasses comes from a
special beach. Place it on the tongue’s pillow,
then look up the first recorded kiss in an encyclopedia: beneath
a Babylonian olive tree in 1200 B.C.
But one kiss levitates above all the others. The
intersection of function and desire. The I do kiss.
The I’ll love you through a brick wall kiss.
Even when I’m dead, I’ll swim through the Earth,
like a mermaid of the soil, just to be next to your bones
- Jeffrey McDaniel
Again I take a taxi to Clichy address, but feel that I do not want to go on loving Henry more actively than he loves me (having realized that nobody will ever love me in that overabundant, overexpressive, overthoughtful, overhuman way I love people), and so I will wait for him. So I ask taxi driver to drop me at the Galeries Lafayette, where I begin to look for a new hat and to shop for Christmas. Pride? I don’t know. A kind of wise retreat. I need people too much. So I bury my gigantic defect, my overflow of love, under trivialities, like a child. I amuse myself with a new hat.
Pacey: When she’s around, I just feel more… I feel more alive. I think people underestimate how important that is.
Jen: I think they overestimate it, too. I mean, as much as you want to, you can’t rely on someone else to make you feel alive. It’s an inside job.
I had no thoughts at all, only an overwhelming desire not to feel anything ever again."
Be careful, though, because if you start believing that bad things happen for a reason, it hurts that much more when they don’t.
Fred, dear Fred. There's so much that I want to say to you. You're the only one in the world with enough wisdom and gentleness to understand. If only it was somebody else's story and not mine. As it is, you're the only one in the world that I can never tell. Never never. Because even if I waited until we were old, old people and told you then, you'd be bound to look back over the years and be hurt. And my dear, I don't want you to be hurt. You see, we're a happily married couple and let's never forget that. This is my home. You're my husband. And my children are upstairs in bed. I'm a happily married woman - or I was, rather, until a few weeks ago. This is my whole world, and it's enough, or rather, it was until a few weeks ago. But, oh, Fred, I've been so foolish. I've fallen in love. I'm an ordinary woman. I didn't think such violent things could happen to ordinary people.
To love. To be loved. To never forget your own insignificance. To never get used to the unspeakable violence and the vulgar disparity of life around you. To seek joy in the saddest places. To pursue beauty to its lair. To never simplify what is complicated or complicate what is simple. To respect strength, never power. Above all, to watch. To try and understand. To never look away. And never, never, to forget.
- Arundhati Roy
Corey: It’s an interesting feeling, you know?
Sean: What? Knowing it’s over?
Corey: No, being the only guy in the world who knows it’s not.
People take different roads seeking fulfillment and happiness. Just because they’re not on your road doesn’t mean they’ve gotten lost.
You asked me to write you a letter, so I am writing you a letter. I do not know why I am writing this letter, or what this letter is supposed to be about, but I am writing it nonetheless, because I love you very much and trust that you have some good purpose for having me write this letter. I hope that one day you will have the experience of doing something you do not understand for someone you love.
- Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close
“ You don’t die of a broken heart, you only wish you did."
“So you’re always honest,” I said.
“No,” I told him. “I’m not.”
“Well, that’s good to know, I guess.”
“I’m not saying I’m a liar,” I told him. He raised his eyebrows. “That’s not how I meant it, anyways.”
“How’d you mean it, then?”
“I just…I don’t always say what I feel.”
“Because the truth sometimes hurts,” I said.
“Yeah,” he said. “So do lies, though
I don't do hugs, I AM hugs.
I know what has occurred is somehow irrevocable. It is like a permanent stain. It is like being born wrong. I understand this because Roxanne lets me hold her hand as tightly as I can. I hold it so long I am convinced I have memorised it, the bones and veins that cross her fingers in ridges like rivers. I hold onto her hand until I am certain I will be able to find her in other lives, when it’s dark, when I’m blind and time is completely different.
ob-la-di, ob-la da, life goes on.
Truth be told, my problem's old
You mean the world to me but you'll never know
Do what you feel in your heart to be right – for you’ll be criticized anyway.
— Eleanor Roosevelt
and here i still stand
waiting for you to hold my hand.
and here we are, standing far apart
and i'm waiting for you to see into my heart.
i swear i'll stop cheesin every time you smile that cute smile. i swear i'll stop texting you back the minute i get a message from you. i don't know how long its gonna take, but i swear, swear, SWEAR that one day i'll get over you. maybe.
so will you take just a little of my mind and subtract it from my soul
add a fraction of your half and you'll see it makes me whole
multiply it by the times that we've never been apart
you'll see nothing can divide just a heart plus a heart
don't walk by me if you're not going to look at me.
don't look at me if you're not going to talk to me.
don't talk to me if you're not going to love me.
but on second thought, that's all i really want.
so you can walk, look and talk all you want.
cuz that's the way i like you.
i have so many things to tell you but i know nothing will make you smile quite like you do when she just looks at you.
the stars don't sparkle that much
and the sky isn't that wide.
the moon doesn't seem to shine enough
and the summer air isn't that hot outside.
the winter air doesn't chill me quite like before
and there is nothing i seem to really excel at.
the world doesn't seem that big anymore
and its all because i love you much more than any of that.
please don't let me go
i desperately need you.
i don't get it. i don't get it at all. you tear me down and rip me up. you make me so weak that i can barely stand it. yet i'm strong enough to keep holding on. i told you, i don't get it. i don't get it at all.
it was about three months since i had actually been with you. and let me just tell you, i went through those months thinking about how i'd be over you by the end of august. well, it's september now and i see you all the time. and let me just tell you, going through those three months was a waste of time.
and ok, so maybe i still fall every now and then, but i know i'm gonna get back up.
and maybe i still fail every once in a while, but i know i'll eventually redeem myself.
and maybe i DO still dream about the impossible, but i know i'll come back to reality.
and yeah, maybe i do still like you, but i know that that's just a silly little dream.
and while the other little girls wanted to be princesses, i knew from the start that i wanted to be yours.
love always ran from me. it was an impossible chase and i could never catch up. it always moved too fast. so i'd be stuck in the dust, far behind. but it'd be okay, cuz i'd be stuck with YOU.
cause this is the real thing
love changes everything
this is the night when every heart's exploding.
++Boys Like Girls
i know your favorite band,
so i downloaded all of their music.
but the problem is, i still can't bring myself to listen to them.
cuz it reminds me of you too much.
no, i've never had a boyfriend.
yes, you'd be my first.
no, i've never been kissed.
yes, you'd be my first.
no, you're not the first one to take my heart.
but yes, you're the only one who never returned it.
sixteen. [**i don't actually like/listen to all these songs, i just sifted through the top 100 songs on iTunes]
i'm trying to figure out exactly whatcha say, like jason derulo
cuz i know that, like the new boyz, you're a jerk
but like space cowboy, i'm falling down further and further into you.
and when i'm with you like i would be with chris brown,
i feel even more love drunk than boys like girls.
and if you were to shoot me with green day's 21 guns,
i will not bow like breaking benjamin
because you'd see that i was already gone like kelly clarkson.
and this battlefield is tougher than jordin spark's
because i see that you learn how to use somebody from the kings of leon.
and there's only one time that sticks out to me more than justin bieber
and that was when you were more obsessed with me than mariah carey
but, like beyonce, that was only in my sweet dreams.
POLL :: HOW DO YOU KNOW YOU'RE IN LOVE?
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Can't get no love without sacrifice.
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well,
a little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell
Life is a great and wondrous mystery, and the only thing we know that we have for sure is what is right here right now. Don't miss it.--Leo Buscaglia
sometimes in life when you get what you want, you end up missing what you left behind ; scrubs
i remember the day perfectly. the same reverberating sound, my heartbeat. your cold eyes. my tear stained bed. i remember it all. if anyone ever asks me what the worst pain is, id have to say baring your heart to someone who doesnt understand how much it means.
But I say give me regret as long as I can keep the good memories too.
-One Tree Hill
i cant count my heartbeats when im around you. i hope you realize how special that is.
"Fear and love are the deepest of human emotions. "
"Okay. But you're not listening to me. There are other things that need to be taken into account here. Like the whole spectrum of human emotion. You can't just lump everything into these two categories and then just deny everything else! "
i hope the stars kiss you goodnight
and ill never bid you farewell
no matter how many times you cut me down to size, make fun of me, taunt me, hurt me, tease me, hurt me again, and ignore me, none of it hurts more then when i see you smiling at her.
Everyone wants to be your sun, but not me. I want to be your moon so I can light up your darkest moments when your sun isn't around.
-"I do not trust him, sir. "
-"What do you distrust?"
-"His nature, sir. Like many charming people, he conceals an almost absolute dependence on the appreciation of others. "
-"And what is the terrible ill in that?"
-"His sole interest is in being loved, sir, not in loving. "
Don't look back on happiness, or dream of it in the future. You are only sure of today; do not let yourself be cheated out of it.--Henry Ward Beecher
Wonder why I’m so caught off guard when we kiss.
Rather live my life in regret than do this.
What happened to the love we both knew?
We both chased.
Hanging on a cigarette you need me,
you burn me you’ll burn me.
-Jimmy Eat World
"what we have done for ourselves alone, dies with us; what we have done for others and the world, remains and is immortal"
Slow demands come 'round
Squeeze the air and keep the rest out
It helps to write it down
Even when you then cross it out
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about taking chances,
and how it’s really just about overcoming your fears.
Because the truth is, every time you take a big risk in your life,
no matter how it ends up, you’re always glad you took it.
Never lie, steal, cheat, or drink But if you must lie, lie in the arms of the one you love. If you must steal, steay away from bad company. If you must cheat, cheat death. And if you must drink, drink in the moments that take your breath away.
I take it back. Take back every single word I wrote about you. I take it back. Take back every single time I stuck my neck out, and let my guard down. Time I could have spent on anything other than you.
goodbye to you. goodbye to all the ripped out journal entries, the top 25 most played songs on itunes all dedicated to you, the late nights where i considered texting you, the casual glances because i cant bear to not have you out of my sigh too long. just goodbye. goodbye to it all.
im getting lost in you more & more each minute. and its not healthy, i know we're just friends. but i cant help wonder, if thats truly where we'll end.
See, if it were me I'd agree
that it pays to be more like you
Wouldn't know, and it showed
as you dropped yourself to your knees
People think dreams aren’t real just because they aren’t made of matter, of particles. Dreams are real. But they are made of viewpoints, of images, of memories and puns and lost hopes.
'Cause change is okay
What's the point in staying the same
Regrets, forget what's dead and gone
even if you think the flame has died, there's at least one lyric that'll hit that last hot spot,
and then you'll find yourself as fucked as you were the day you lied and said you never wanted to see him again.
i can see you on the horizon like a storm that's soon to be.
and is it so bad to be in love with a memory?
i called the therapist yesterday in a panic.
i said what if the sky falls again?
and she said "well, what if you fall in love
it's all about hiding the crazy and acting like the most confident girl in the room.
all of the stars are fading away.
just try not to worry,
you'll see them some day.
take what you need
and be on your way
and stop crying your heart out.
Lucas:"The difference? The difference is that I love you Brooke, I wanna be with you, not Peyton.”
Brooke: "But why? I need to know why?”
Lucas:"Because you kink your eyebrows when you’re trying to be cute. Because you quote Kmo even though I’ve actually never seen you read. Because you miss your parents, but you never admit that! And because I’ve given exactly two of these embarrassing speeches, and they’ve both been with you. And because we’re both gonna get pneumonia, but if you, need to hear why I love you, I can go on all night.”
Its a funny thing about life... if you refuse to accept anything but the best, you very often get it.
-W. Somerset Maughem
my heart is on my sleeve
wear it like a bruise or black eye
-fall out boy
Take chances, take a lot of them.
Because honestly, no matter where
you end up and with whom, it always
ends up just the way it should be.
Your mistakes make you who you
are. You learn and grow with each
choice you make. Everything is
worth it. Say how you feel, always.
Be you, and be okay with it.
Cause I'm a mess and you know that I can't help it
The drive home never seemed this long before
We're killing time just a little bit faster
And I swear we'll make it
Here's to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square hole. The ones who see things differently. They're not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can't do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.
at the end of the day, you either focus on what seperates you, or what holds you together.
- the o.c
You are the answer to every prayer I’ve offered. You are a song, a dream, a whisper … and I don’t know how I could have lived without you for as long as I have.
I screamed and kicked and yelled and cried for you. I gave it my all, but that wasn't enough. And you know what, when everything doesn't cut it, then we don't either. All the pain and the hurt feels like so long ago. I'm over you.
I realize the odds and sciences are against me. But science is not the total answer; this I have learned in my lifetime. And that leaves me with the belief that miracles, no matter how inexplicable or unbelievable, are real and can occur without regard to the natural order of things.
All the best love stories have one thing in common… you have to go against odds to get there. -Party of Five
I’m the guy for you. I know we’re just part-time, that’s cool. You know, do whatever, have your fun. But one of these nights you’re gonna realize it; I’m the guy for you Brooke Davis…. You’ll see”
-One Tree Hill
I memorized all your favorite things
Your favorite songs and how to sing
You played the strings and found my tone
I loved you so much with all my bones
-Secret Secret Dino Club
It's almost like you had it planned
It's like you smiled and shook my hand and said
"Hey, I'm about to screw you over, big time"
its a weird feeling, loving you and seeing you with someone else. it doesnt hurt. it doesnt hurt a bit.
and even if it did, id never admit it.
I think it is all a matter of love: the more you love a memory, the stronger and stranger it is.
if i still had you near me, id draw all over your skin. id leave little trails and messages, leading to your heart. id draw out our future, our past, everything. and then you'd kiss me good night and it'd all be okay.
When love beckons to you follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep.
Some people are settling down, some people are settling and some people refuse to settle for anything less than butterflies.
-Sex and the City
Watching him, I thought, not for the first time that night, that maybe it should have felt strange to be with him, here, now. And yet it didn't, at all. That was one of the things about the night. Stuff that would be weird in the bright light of day just wasn't so much once you passed a certain hour. It was like the dark just evened it all out somehow.
I felt a haunting loneliness sometimes, and felt it in others - poor young clerks who loitered in front of windows waiting until it was time for a solitary restaurant dinner - young clerks in the dusk, wasting the most poignant moments of night and life.
-The Great Gatsby
What is this life if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare?
-W. H. Davies
You could move on, do the best you could. But an ending is an ending. No matter how many pages of sentences and paragraphs of great stories led up to it, it would always have the last word.
The miracle is not to fly in the air, or to walk on the water, but to walk on the earth.
Life is a ticket to the greatest show on earth.
-Martin H. Fischer
he was blessed with always finding someone to heal him. im here, and so are thousands of other girls. i wonder if he'll ever see a light in any of them. i wonder if we're all just faces to him. i wonder if being in love with someone so much will ever be worth a damn.
Life is a game, boy. Life is a game that one plays according to the rules.
-J. D. Salinger
dont you realize you deserve so much more than she gives you, and everything i could provide?
and all the city lights are sparkling, and youre probably at home with a girl, kissing and laughing. and here i am, awake at 1 am hoping to god that you remember me while youre in the sheets with her. hoping to god its not really over, that you'll tell me theres a chance. but the city lights keep blinking, and i cant help but think my hearts slowly darkening.
the electricity we have between us could light up entire cities.
You want to know what happiness is? It's waking up in the middle of the night, shifting under the blankets and feeling the heart of the person next to you. You turn around and see them in their most peaceful, innocent, and vulnerable state. They breathe as though the weight of the world lies on anyone’s shoulders but their own. You smile and kiss their face in the gentlest manner so as not to wake them. You turn back and an involuntary grin forms on your face. You feel an arm wrap around your waist and you know it doesn't get any better than this.
Keep love in your heart. A life without it is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead. The consciousness of loving and being loved brings a warmth and richness to life that nothing else can bring.
Life is full of misery, loneliness, and suffering - and it's all over much too soon.
I'm not afraid of heights, I'm afraid of falling. I'm not scared of the dark, I'm scared of what's in it. I'm not afraid to love, I'm afraid of not being loved back.
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
For this simple reason
I just need to keep you in mind
As something larger than life
-Taking Back Sunday
And true it may seem like a stretch
But it's thoughts like this that catch
My troubled head when you're away
When I am missing you to death
-Iron & Wine
She's probably somebody's only light
But I don't blame you anymore
That's too much pain to store
It left me half dead
Inside my head
And boy, looking back I see
I'm not the girl I used to be
When I lost my mind
It saved my life
and you know what? its freezing out here. fucking freezing. but its not as cold as you, it'll never be. id rather stay out here and catch fucking pneumoneia than have you stare at me the way you do.
In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life. It goes on.
fall apart almost always translates into fall in love.
She finally drank her pain away a little at a time,
but she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind.
Sometimes patience has nothing
to do with it, and sometimes, no matter
how much you tough it out, you're not
supposed to, and the pieces will absolutely
not fall where you fucking want them to.
I have questions for you that I never got the chance to ask:
Do you look like you did back then?
Would it make a difference anyway?
Do you think of me, when you least expect it-
when you're unwrapping a garden hose,
or tilting your face to the shower,
or making love to someone else?
And can you leave it at that,
or do you find yourself compulsively sifting through the memories?
If I had been the one to leave,
would you have written out your heart to me?
Sometimes I like you, sometimes you make me smile. Sometimes
you dont come around, sometimes I don’t care.For everything you
make me feel and everything you don’t,I love you still +I will never
She said she didn't believe
It could happen to me
I guess we're all one phone call from our knees
So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean.
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes. Give me reason to
fill this hole, connect the space between. Let it be enough to reach
the truth that lies across this new divide
after all, it’s all kinds of things that make up a life, right? the big,
like falling in love and spending time with your family. and the
little, like blow drying your hair, applying concealer, and cursing
those magazine inserts.it all counts,it has to.- sarah dessen
I wish I had shown you all the
things that I was on the inside
What we call chaos is just patterns we haven't recognized. What we call random is just patterns we can't decipher. What we can't understand we call nonense. What we can't read we call gibberish. There is no free will. There are no variables. There is only the inevitable.
You can't blame me for trying. I've gone through seasons waiting for you with nothing changing but the weather. And I want to say that I'm okay with being alone, and i want to show you I'm okay with being alone. But even if i said it, i wouldn't mean it. To be quite honest, the only thing getting me through the days is false hope that things are going to be okay, that they're going to get better. But without you, I'm never okay because you're the only thing that makes me better.
The truth is, I've never fooled anyone. I've let people fool themselves. They didn't bother to find out who and what I was. Instead, they would invent a character for me. I wouldn't argue with them, they were obviously loving someone I wasn't. - Marilyn Monroe
Forget about your lists and do what you can because that's all you
can do. Phone up the people you miss and tell them you love them.
hug those close to you as hard asyou can.Because you are always
only a drunk driver 's stupidity, a nervous shopkeeper's mistake, a
doctor's best attempts and an old age away from forever
So let's end these conversations and I'll give you your congratulations. You've left me bare and burned out, with a broken heart and mind. I heard it all heals in time. So go on, walk right past me, I'm used to it.